number90

The greatest urgency lies in letting life zip by
feeling a million ants all over the body
crawling, one foot at a time
on urges
to do something
what it is unbeknownst
yet the squeak in the chair distracts
the impulse of the urges
as if life was being wasted
the uncontrollable push forward is brought to a halt
a simple preoccupation
stamps it out
leaving inadequacy and insufficiency a wide open field to operate
yet
as I move hands
my brain busy, insistent I kill this noise that comes from my chair, I find comfort
and secureness that I will beat the squeak in the chair
as my emotional instigators go
those are still there
before it is known
urging, urging