I need a new keyboard.
Not alien like the one before me. Of course, you can’t see my keyboard but really, proof here is a minor bureaucratic shuffle of papers. I really need a new keyboard.
But perhaps most importantly I need a new way to express myself in English. There are ways unknown to express new feelings. Yet the rut befalls me. There are no new ways like old Diamanda Galas There Are No More Tickets to the Funeral.
So I stand before thee. Begging for a new beginning. I want back. I want to express myself in this language known as the English language.
You might ask why I ask this.
I am at a loss too.
A weakness has taken over the control of this weak body. A body that negotiates at whim.
There is no longer who am I? Rather a business transaction in the background that demands a voyeur
as a democratic action would demand a notary.